It's Not All Happy

There's a level where the fact that my first post of 2010 is gloomy that is funny. A slight smile and snicker.

But overall, it's mainly an ache.

I have no idea where this came from......I kind of feel sideswiped or tackled from behind. Maybe it came from the tv show I just watched in which someone was talking about fighting for the other. And these feelings came out of nowhere.


I wish there was a way to share this without feeling pathetic.....

..................or feeling like you're judging me.

Sorry but that's how I feel.

I wouldn't post this at all but I know this side of me doesn't get shared that often. I know that.


But, to be honest, it's because you don't ask. You don't spend the time.

Why would I share these feelings with you if you haven't even taken the time to figure out my current favorite beverage or latest discovery?

Sorry to sound cruel or bitter but, again, just sharing how I feel.

......which right now is a bit lonely.





Why do I feel like I'm fighting for so many.....and like no one is fighting for me? No, I can't do this alone. Yes, I hurt. Yes, I need someone holding me accountable, someone to have the courage to call me on stuff. To have the courage to look past the front and see the rest....I need someone else to initiate, someone else to ...........

.....is it too much to ask? Is it a dream that is only reality on tv?






Melancholy, over dramatic. Call it what you wish. I call it honest.

2009 - A Year in Review

Oh, 2009. It is now over with you and a new 2010 has arrived, whether we were ready for it or not. Seems now is an appropriate time look again at 2009 to experience once again what has passed.

Oh good times with Young Life. To begin the year with a spiritual retreat in Seaside. A beautiful time on the coast with amazing sunsets. A time to sit silent before the Lord. To sit in front of the immense ocean, remembering how huge our God is, and hear the still, small voice of the One who adores us.

Summer Assignment with Young Life: At the beginning of April I was asked to be the Camp Director at Breakaway during 1st session. It was a fantastic session. My team was all younger staff members and most were good friends of mine even before the session started. They all did a fantastic job and many, many middle schoolers enjoyed a great camp experience. I also learned a lot about myself, about managing a team in a high stress environment and a deeper understanding (and appreciation) of how well Young Life crafts their camps so that each kid is set up to truly hear the Gospel proclaimed. In addition, I made some outstanding friends. Look at the picture at the right. That's a heart in the clouds. Beautiful.

Kelso Young Life: YL is going really well, this year. It was hard doing Young Life with only two leaders at such a big school. To be honest, I was absolutely done with club around April. However, we had a great camp experience that really started us off strong in the 2009-2010 school year. Futhermore, God answered many years of prayer and we now have a 6-person team at Kelso! Yay God! I feel the ministry is growing deeper every week as the connections between leaders and kids grow.


TRCS VB: We have a new league this season, the Columbia Valley 1B/2B league. It was great to have that format around us. We had a fantastic season!! Our seniors really led us and we achieved some great things: Terrier Invite Champs (Pic at right), 3rd in league, Tied-1st 1B side of the league, 1B District IV Champions (pic at left), 2nd straight State Bid, won a match at state (1st time in school history). My setter was league MVP and made the all-state team. I also had 3 other players get all-league awards.

Excel VB: One of the coaches I coach against during the school season asked me to coach for her club program, Excel Northwest Volleyball. I have the 14 Black team, the top 14 team in our club. We have a good team. We have some work to do but we’re looking pretty good so far. The season kicks off with the Cowlitz tournament on January 10th here in Longview.

Grad School: After all these years of putting it in this letter that grad school was coming some day…….January 2009 was when someday finally came. I enrolled in the United States Sports Academy as a dual major candidate in the Master of Sport Science degrees of Sport Management and Sport Coaching. My 2nd class is nearly done. The program should end (depending on finances and how many classes at a time I can bust out) in around 2 years. First class was great…2nd class is eh…ok.

June 2009: While he doesn't officially have his diploma in hand, Tyson was a part of the graduation celebration at EWU this year! Wooo!!!